Sep '02 [Home] By Degree 365: Year One of 9/11 Feature Anthology:Points of the Circle Point Resumed Equity ~ Desmond Croan | Souvenir of a Closed Rite ~ Laura Sherwood Rudish | Living in the Falling Apart ~ Elaine Schwager | Express ~ Sophie Cabot Black | Let the other yew . . . (excerpt from "Ash Wednesday") T. S. Eliot Point-Blank | Point of Honor | Disrepair | Distance | Order "New York, the 11th (July 26, 1788)" (ink on paper) © 2002 Big City Lit There could be an end to the desire to find a metaphor to describe something horrifying beautifully. Then beauty and horror would end. And there'd be nothing stopping anything, . . . —Elaine Schwager ("Living in the Falling Apart") |
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Equity Desmond Croan I no longer crave legends Nor wish to comprehend The truths of Ancient Chinese texts. The difference between solitude and happiness Reveals itself quite close to the ocean, Under the shadow of the magnolia tree, Upon great piers overlooking ageless waters, And I shall have the photographs to remind me so. ~ . ~ Souvenir of a Closed Rite Laura Sherwood Rudish When it rains at Stonehenge, the crows unfold. Their shadows tend the abandonment. They roost among plinth holes Pick at dropped crisps and soggy bits of ice cream cones. Lambs graze by a broken gate. There's something waiting beyond the corner Of my eye. If I could only catch a glimpse of. So clothed in hazes. White sheets snap on the clothesline by the kitchen door. ~ . ~ Living in the Falling Apart Elaine Schwager Death is nearby, breathing where life doesn't, sure in the dark downturn, the rush of no control. Life is stripped of wanting us. We are suddenly undesirable, fattened with poor man's faith and rich man's sweets, ignored by what we believed in. Strangely, we only want to be caressed in the way we caress by other than what we think to be a thought in a silence we wander into thoughtless. We, the outside, like night is outside a star's-two faced profile, watching old light twinkle—a reminder that universes have their life spans too. There could be an end to the desire to find a metaphor to describe something horrifying beautifully. Then beauty and horror would end. And there'd be nothing stopping anything, just we outside like night is outside a star's two-faced profile believing this is an interesting place to find oneself, this end that is wider than whatever was out there till now. ~ . ~ Express Sophie Cabot Black (i) I measure ways out of here. Scan a room, Memorize each exit sign. Count the stairs. It's easy to blame the dark, the infinite For what hasn't happened yet. I know all the names Of the highways, the exact wrenchings of elevators, Their clutch: every night I have had to lie a little more To come back, the heart a little more finished. In the vacant lot the resident alchemist hums To herself. Punkers practice on her head, Shave great arcs, try to shape a word. She resurrects Makeup, paints her nails as if waiting For something important she has known all along. (ii) The dream goes like this: from my window I hear Jesus and Mitchell walking together and at the end of my street Jesus says to Mitchell, "My house is closer than your house, Why don't you come home with me?" And when they finally found Mitchell In an alley between two brick buildings, He looked like overripe fruit, ready to gush At any moment: him with his mouth at an odd angle Ready to take an entire world Into himself, into his arm. Just inside his coat A bone-white packet marked Express. (iii) All I wanted was to make love. Slowly to use the body up Piece by piece till it's only night twitching, Saying goodbye. But his voice keeps on going: No Power Was there at your beginning, and there will be No Power at your end. No Angel, thighs Of fresh rope, feathers glistening, wisps of hair Heading back up as he touches Down on your life. No Angel, only pictures Of people you love, edges Curling in. There is only what you might do And what you damage. Even now the house you build Fills with others, with the last of the god-loved, Patient animals. They move in, watch us carry All we carry against ourselves. And I said: come To bed real soon and hold me tight. (Prior publ.: Ploughshares) ~ . ~ Let the other yew . . . . . . And the lost heart stiffens and rejoices In the lost lilac and the lost sea voices And the weak spirit quickens to rebel For the bent golden-rod and the lost sea smell Quickens to recover The cry of quail and the whirling plover And the blind eye creates The empty forms between the ivory gates And smell renews the salt savour of the sandy earth This is the time of tension between dying and birth The place of solitude where three dreams cross Between blue rocks But when the voices shaken from the yew-tree drift away Let the other yew be shaken and reply. . . . —T. S. Eliot ("Ash Wednesday") [Home] Point-Blank | Point of Honor | Disrepair | Distance | Order | |